Wander off the path every now and then..

I was thinking about writing today, needless to say I didn't have much luck with inspiration. So, I thought I would give you a little peak into what taking the long way around did for me; here on the Internet (in public).  To be honest, this blog began as a weight loss journal for the masses. Sort of a way for me to showcase my physical transformation. This began as a means for me to have center stage on top of a very large soapbox for a few minutes of your day. Somewhere along the way it morphed into something else; something better..but never in a million years would I have ever guessed that it would turn into something so BIG.. Ok.. stop..now think big (grandiose, large, extra huge) and then,... go bigger than THAT!   

Seriously, what I have done here is transform my LIFE. Sure, I still talk about weight loss, because it is a very big (no pun intended) part of who I am. Don't get me wrong, I have had GREAT weight loss results (thank you Vi, and Vi family) However, I think I am happiest because I have found my words again. (yippee!)  Speaking to those of you who know me, you know that I can talk.. :) *wink, wink*  What I suppose I mean by "I have found my words" is this:  I realize that people may not always like what I have to say, but I have a right to say what I feel in my heart.  <3


I have learned that I am easily inspired by others, but I have also learned that my story is inspiring others. :)  I have had so many people reach out to me through email and say things like, "Thank you for those words, they are just what I needed to hear today" and "That brought me to tears, thank you for sharing."   I don't know why I ever felt like I lost my words... but for a long time, I didn't feel like I had anything to say. Not one.single. positive. encouraging. word. Now, it seems that's all that comes out of my mouth. Yay me.. and Yay YOU!!  Thank you for sharing your words with me!  :) 

Now, this journey I'm on is not always easy; in fact, some people think I've lost my mind (or should).. but, instead of letting that get to me, instead of letting negative comments drag me down, I'm letting them build me up. You're probably thinking who does that?!?!?!?!? I know it sounds cheesy, but I promise you it is the truth.. Old friends who knew the deep, dark, cynical me are probably thinking I'm just "acting" positive. They may think that I'm just going through a phase and at any moment I will slip back into my old habits. Sorry to tell ya (not really) that is incorrect. Don't misunderstand: I don't live every moment, of every day happy..  Does that make me a hypocrite?  Absolutely not!!! 

Here's the thing..In order for me to shift my behavior, I had to recognize there are only two ways I can choose to think about things.. There is the old way, which sounds a lot like this: "Oh no, not that again".. "I can't".. "I don't think (feel, want)".. "I hate that".. OR there is the new way which sounds something like this: "Sure thing" .. "That's awesome".. "I've got it covered".. "I believe".. "I know".. "I AM".. Today, I can speak the words, "I have faith" and actually mean them.

You see once I realized that it was way easier to say YES to feeling love, and opening myself up to receive love in return, my entire reason for waking up in the morning changed. All of the other things that came along with that feeling of wholeness (e.g. happiness, peace, communication, positivity) just sort of showed up. (WOO HOO!!)  Don't get me wrong.. I'm very glad those other feelings appeared..I'm sure my kids, co-workers, friends, parents, and readers are too :)..



So I leave you with this my friends:  The next time you start a journey, take time to wander off the path. You may be pleasantly surprised at what you find. I did.. and now the title of this blog "Weight? Whatever!!!" has a whole new meaning to me.  :)

Enjoy your night, hold your kids tight.. and let love surround you!