Change, change, change: You hear the Beatles now, don't you??

We all experience changes in our lives.  Sometimes these changes are welcomed; sometimes they just whack you out of left field.  Truth is, if you’re not willing to roll with the changes sometimes, you may be missing out on something that can literally transform your life from what it IS, to what it COULD be..  I don’t know about you, but I want to see where change takes me.

Yeah okay, we’ve all heard the cliché’s: “change is good”, “change is necessary”, or my personal favorite “change is hard”.  Well, no kidding!  Websters dictionary states that to change- is to transform, or convert.  How many times have you attempted to transform or covert something without a little resistance?  That resistance, it comes from YOU.. You may not want to admit this, but it is that voice deep down that says, “This is difficult” or “This is uncomfortable” that makes us afraid of transforming our lives, or quit. 

The staggering (yet, blatantly obvious) fact is change happens.

I have been undergoing some massive changes in my life.  Some deeply personal, some physical, and some are emotionally charged.  Unfortunately, I have not taken my own advice, and  I have been in this rut of deciding what to do about these things for months. Since I tend to over analyze things a bit (for those friends reading who actually KNOW me- you may stop laughing now), I often think about changing so much that I don’t actually change a thing. Why?? Because it is way more comfortable for me to sit and worry about things and how they COULD go, as opposed to me getting out there and making things happen for myself.  I think this is a small step in the right direction… hey, at least now I’m recognizing that I need to change some things about myself.

So I leave you with this:  How many times in the past 90 days have you been uncomfortable?  How many changes are occurring in your life right now (personally, or professionally)? How often do you look inside yourself to make sure that you’re actually transforming yourself or converting into the you that you’re capable of instead of the you that is afraid of change? 

My  recommendation to you is this:  Change one thing about yourself for one day.  ONE DAY is all I am asking for.  NO long term commitment; no contract to sign, and with my few loyal readers, it is not like I’m going to know who participated.  However, if you do elect to participate in this DAY of change, I welcome you to let me know how it went.  You don’t have to share with me; but as an unbiased person who writes a blog, I’d probably be a good person to share your changes with. 

Tell me about your transformation.  Tell me about your struggles.  Tell me about how great you felt after you made that change.  After all, change is inevitable; change is necessary,  but most importantly change is GOOD!

Knock, knock.. I HEAR YOU!

Ever felt like you're stuck in the middle of some knock, knock joke world?  Constantly being quizzed, laughed at, and nobody quite gets you?  That is me this week!  Wowza!  So I've been asking myself these questions.. When will I feel as though my life has meaning? When will people stop doubting me, stop shutting me down, and stop disregarding my feelings? When will people start realizing that I'm valuable? When will people GET me?
 
Here's the thing:  I will not settle for less than I deserve (Got that? I WILL NOT SETTLE).. but lately, I find myself doubting my future .. Now, when I say that I'm doubting my future, I don't doubt my ability to do ANYTHING. In fact, quite the opposite is true. Once I set my mind to something I can accomplish anything (except perhaps rebuilding a jet engine, OR developing the next Nobel prize winning physics equation)..Other people however, must think I am completely clueless about life in general!  This assumption of mine (that people think I'm clueless) is based solely on their reactions TO me; as a person, a coworker, a friend, a business partner, etc..  It's like I'm a small child who can't understand  "big people" words. This is how most conversations are going in my head this week:

Me: Knock, knock
People:  Who's there? 
Me: I'm an ADULT.. I heard you the first fifty times you told me that!!!" <-- Well, that's what it sounds like in my head anyway.  

The words that come out of my mouth are much different... less sarcastic, more straight forward. (Usually *wink, wink*)
 
How is it I can be so outspoken in some aspects of my life, and so guarded in others?  

People often confuse my guarded-ness with stupidity, lack of self-confidence, lack of pride, lack of motivation, or.. WHATEVER!!! 

I think that it's time people stop underestimating me..Tomorrow I take the guard down!  What is the worst that could happen, right?

Any thoughts? Anyone?  :)

Get angry, or get ahead?

I think I've been going about things in the wrong way lately. I have been trying to get positive by posting happy, inspirational stuff all over Facebook and my Google+ wall..but I figured out that while I'd like to think that is my true personality, I think I've found that I'm just the opposite.  No, no.. I don't mean I think I'm like the queen of doom and gloom or anything.. I think what motivates me, is NOT what motivates most other people.  In order for the fight in me to emerge, I need to get angry.. I have been stuffing down my emotions for so long, and honestly, stuffing down my emotions has not been pushing me towards my goal.  

So, I had an epiphany last night, and that is.. I'm freaking MAD!  I'm so angry about getting passed up for this thing, or looked over for that thing, that I am now motivated to go out and get WHATEVER I WANT! Who is with me?  

If you're tired of people taking all that should be rightfully yours, stop letting people push you.. get angry.. Don't get EVEN, don't seek revenge, use that angry energy to get what you want!  

What a girl (me) wants!!

Have you ever wanted something so badly, and it feels like it is just at the end of the fishing line.. You know what I'm talking about.. This feeling, it's like one of those days that you go fishing.. certain that day will be the day you "catch the big one".  Instead, your great fishing excursion turns into one of those days that you just sit there with your line in the water, losing bait..
 
Well, that's been my day. My week actually!! I want something so badly, it is literally driving me crazy!  Here's the kicker; I can't control it.  

Now, I suppose it is safe to say that I have some issues with control.. I don't like it when people try to control me, and I don't favor the feeling of being manipulated. Unfortunately this particular situation is completely out of my control.  Well, that's not entirely true.. I controlled the portion that I could.. but now I'm wondering if it was enough.  Was it enough? Am I enough? I just don't know..

Guess I will have to put this on the back burner and keep waiting (see.. I can control that).. 

Have a good night everyone, and a happy tomorrow.